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“Must Watch “Synagogue of Satan” Full by Andrew Carrington Pt 1

In Uncategorized on April 21, 2014 at 11:12 pm

Jew’s Murders of over 100,000,000 Whites, not to mention their Brown Middle East Neighbors. 4 + hours video.

1. Jew Sam Landman, Secretary World’s Zionist Organization, confesses Jews of USA brought the (Whites) of America into war. The Jews were only winners getting a declaration for them to eventually get land of Palestine so they could call themselves (wrongly) the children of Israel in Old Testament as God’s Chosen. Whites are and Jews will do anything to keep that from us and for us to worship them. There are 30,000,000 Whites today who worship Jews, hate themselves, each other, even children and parents of Europe so apparently whatever witchcraft Jews are using on us is working.

2. 1920-1931. White Louis T. McFadden (Chairman of the House Banking Currency Committee) faces the Jew tiger in the eye. He was fearless. Even my Mama beat my Daddy for he would not stand up to greedy Jew book publishers where he worked for 35 years in Skokie Illinois without a raise and bad treatment. White McFadden pointed the finger of Truth at Jew bankers & I have on my website earlier more on this as is his speech to Congress. Jews always get last word. Jews tried to assassinate him first poison, second bullets, and finally wiped him and his expose of Jews off the map of world and our minds forever. Poisoned him. Man in Vegas, Campbell, called for trying and executing for Treason, Jew bankers, Jew heads of org who manipulate our government. He and his wife said he was being poisoned. My sister thought I might be being poisoned in Vegas, but if one thinks that they are called “crazy.” Yet, Jews do it. Marilyn Monroe: Poison in enema thru her butt so it couldn’t be found on autopsy.

3. “Stalin, Trotsky or Levin,” book states if Jews do not succeed in World Wide Communism which will smash all governments including USA, England, Poland, Middle East, etc so they can head a world wide government their Jew race will become extinct and die.

4. Writer William Joyce of England disgusted with Jewish rule over White Britain defects to Germany before war.

5. 1937, Jews call for war with White Christian Germany, not Hitler declaring war against us. Jews called for total genocide of each and every White German man, woman, child, pregnant woman.

6. 1937: Rear Admiral Henry Hamilton Beamish. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Henry_Hamilton_Beamish  Jews right away used their courts (which they control as in USA up to Supreme Court, 4 of 9 Justices) and prosecuted him for “libel.” Jews won. Oddly Jews won Civil War, World War I, World War II, won all our forms of communication, art, music, banks, courts, schools, books, magazines, TV, movies, billboards, porn, medical, gambling, legal field, and the White man lost all his inventions, his way of life, his very life and manhood as they stripped me of my womanhood. British White Beamish said clearly, Russian Revolution 1917 was Jews not White Russians as now we see clearly. But right or wrong, Jews win/Whites lose. Beamish stared the Jewish Devil in the eye fearlessly and said “I implore you to be accurate. Call them Jews. There is no need to be delicate in this issue. Jews absolutely got you by the throat which is your reward for helping them.”

7. 1939. Hitler and Nazis clearly see the damage done to White Germans after World War I to their men, women, children, babies in womb. They kick out Jewish banks, Jewish homosexuality, lesbians (149 of 150 bars in capital of Germany, Berlin, were just for sexual sick perverted homos and lezzies.) Hitler established “Barter.” Instead of banking where people cooperate with each other not White cut throats such as Jew induced “keeping up with Joneses.”

8. Hitler and Nazis kicked out Jew real estate who bought up all farming land and drove White farmers into bankruptcies. Hitler/Nazis established ownership of land for father to hand down to son/offspring.

9. 1944: Jewish vicious “Stern Gang,” assassinates (murders) Walter Edward Guinness, 1st Baron Moyne DSO & Bar PC (29 March 1880 – 6 November 1944) was an Anglo-Irish politician and businessman. He served as the British minister of state in the Middle East until November 1944, when he was assassinated by the Jewish terrorist group Lehi. The assassination of Lord Moyne sent shock waves through Palestine and the rest of the world. (from Wiki). Speaking of Jew last name “Stern,” in my autobiography, Jew Dr. Jacob Stern, Dentist, 90th Commercial, sexually assaulted me while I was in dentist chair when I was about 12, feeling my breasts and saying “You are sprouting nicely!” Until today, I’m terrified of dentists and told the dentists at the university school in Vegas when they asked me why I was so scared. Jews scared and scarred me for life. Also, on my White grandmother’s death certificate it says she went to see this Satanic Dr. Jacob Stern’s brother, also Dr. Jacob Stern, same address, but he was regular doctor. The death certificate reads she went to see him on Halloween, October 31, 1939, within a month of beginning of World War II, and she is dead within 24 hours on All Saints’ Day.


Grandma's Death Certificate Showing Dr. Jacob Stern, Jew, last to see her. Jew doctor of same name sexually assaulted me in dentist chair about 1958.

Grandma’s Death Certificate Showing Dr. Jacob Stern, Jew, last to see her. Jew doctor of same name sexually assaulted me in dentist chair about 1958.

Sick Sex – Whites / Jewess

In Uncategorized on March 26, 2014 at 2:00 pm

Sick Sex: Whites/Jewess.

You will see in article below how two Jewess’ one named “Fanny” manipulated the most powerful White men…. in “salons” in bed. Just as they did Stalin, World War II, with “3” Jewess’ mistresses. Jewess Princess on a Pedestal “JAPP” controls the world so she doesn’t have to work and her kids will be assured of the “highest” and “best” for their lives and breeding. It is why Jews called my Poland their Jewish Empire headquarters for 900 years, “Kingdom of Heaven” while they enslaved my ancestors in the “Kingdom of Hell.” As Jesus said of them: “Ye are of the Devil…. the Synagogue of Satan.” Jesus talked plainly while the rest of the world shuddered in fear worshipping Jews

Also, Jews wanted to smash the White male (if the wars they put our White men thru as my deceased White US Marine who commit suicide from his injuries, addictions, wounds, nightmares, both day and night)… by forcing our White men into anal sex…. homosexuality. Our White women into lesbianism. Both genocidal to White race. Believe me, Jews are homosexuals, yet they have at least 1 Kyke Kid to replace them, even though the Jewess hates her husband so much she won’t give him anymore sex other than to get that one kid so she doesn’t have to work a day in her life. ($$$, inheritance.) She has perfected that scheme at the cost of my future, my life as a White woman. I have never asked to be “worshipped” or “lazy as sin” as a White Woman on a pedestal. Even with karaoke, I have always given proper credit to the star’s music I sing.

The Jewess more than likely (named Fanny) convinced the White man with lies that anal sex is “better.” You know the “taboo” in the Bible with Adam and Eve. Getting so much “hard” sex, sick sex, the White man got addicted to it. Also it made the White man more “violent” to fight the wars for the Jew$ and Jewe$$. As I read in 27 sex books, the feeling and hormones of “sex” and “violence” are the same! It is why all the Black sports figures that “win” have such a heavy sex life, while the White man just holds a remote watching the blacks and Jews of sports get sexually charged in competition sports games. These same blacks, browns, Jews, screw the hell out of your best White women. Often leading to abortions since they are so lazy and stupid not to use rubbers even to ward off diseases.

White mothers/fathers/grandparents/teachers/religious/ now subject our White boys and girls to such filth. Better not one more White baby be born to this Jewess slavery or steralize all of them including every non-White that is on American soil.

“Vienna, Congress of, international congress held in Vienna, September 1814 to June 1815, to reestablish peace and order in Europe after the Napoleonic Wars. The congress met at the Apollosaal built by the English-born Jew, Sigmund Wolfssohn, and the delegates were often entertained during the course of the proceedings in the salons of Jewish hostesses, such as Fanny von Arnstein and Cecily Eskeles.” – Encyclopedia Judaica, Vol 16, 1972, p. 132.

You can bet that, while these Jewish hostesses were serving Matzo ball soup, the Jewish bankers were offering government officials loans of all types, with usurious strings attached! Realizing what power such a Congress could give organized banking, the Rothschilds kept organizing more such events, which eventually resulted in the League of Nations. When that failed, due to America’s rejection of the plan, the United Nations was finally established by the Rothschilds on June 26, 1945. Alger Hiss, a Soviet-Zionist spy, worked on the UN Charter while Nelson Rockefeller, a capitalist-Zionist banker, arranged for its headquarters to be set up in New York City. The Rockefellers donated the property, but the American taxpayer has been paying for this Satanic Trojan Horse ever since.

The (Jewish family of 1700’s until today) House of Rothschild has been deceiving the world with its One World Government designs since the demise of the Holy Roman Empire. There is no doubt that this is the “little season” of Verse 3. As Mayer Amschel Rothschild put it: “Give me the power to issue a nation’s currency and I care not who makes its laws.”

Jews: White Mis-Fortune

In Uncategorized on December 5, 2013 at 1:17 pm

Jews: White Mis-Fortune. See Dr. William Pierce’s video on this 100th anniversary month of the Jew Federal Reserve Misfortune of their White Takeover and Enslavement!

Been very sick since I was beat up severely at karaoke, even crippled. Sometimes, it is all I can do to just function, and it takes all my might to do so. I guess I was too much for the Jews to handle. They should look at the “Jewess” for their source of problems, not me.


Jews and the Death of the White Race, Federal Reserve Bank 1913

In Uncategorized on December 2, 2012 at 9:42 pm

Federal Reserve Bank. The Jews got into Poland in 1096 and then made sure that the government and nobles used the Jews to “collect” taxes from the White Christians. Then Jews lowered their mental atom bomb Dec. 23, 1913. Same year as the Jew IRS taxes on Whites.  (they discovered and dropped the two atom bombs on Japan, not Whites, so if any other races are reading, you also need to think for your existence and class of living depends on Whites).

I protested against the Federal Reserve Bank in LA. About 500 people, mostly White, and there was not one drop of news. The Whites didn’t know Jews not only run the Federal Reserve Bank but the newspapers, TV news, Radio news, Associated Press the main source of “all” the news we get to hear, and they hide, like this protest, whatever they don’t want. The Jews made sure there was a “homosexual anal / oral protest” right next to us when we were on Hollywood and Vine and there were so many Jew cameras and news reporters one would have thought the President had shown up. Don’t White mothers especially, but even White fathers of homosexuals care about the fact the Jews destroyed them for life and that your gene pool is dead already!?

As the song “American Pie,” goes, the “day the music died,” Dec. 23, 1913, was when the White Race officially died, even Christianity and we became White slaves for Jews. Only Jews murdered us and that is an entire different story. Mama said back in the early 1950’s that the Whites were spiritually dead. They had bodies, cars, kids, houses, jobs, but dead to that which is important in life. The Whites have become just another commodity: Car, House, Computer, Cell Phone, White Man, White woman, White Child. We’re all blended in together.
Federal Reserve Tombstone

Alex Jones, Black favoritism, and Denies Communism

In Uncategorized on December 2, 2012 at 9:32 pm

Alex Jones & Communists. I sometimes listen to Alex Jones but I was disappointed in him. He had a black woman on that talked with the authority of a goddess, like Oprah, Michelle, etc.

She said that the problem is not the banks, or the Communists (Jews but she never said that taboo word).  I became upset for how can a black woman like her dictate to me with such authority as well as Jones’ popularity that the Communists are not our problem. Does she read and study any other history besides her own black history which like the Holocaust is coming out of my ears, vomited out of my mouth, coming out of my rectum and urinary hole that pees. I can’t stand it anymore.

Then Jones agrees with her 100% it is not the Commies. The Commies won World War II, killed 100,000,000, the Commies of Viet Nam & China won Viet Nam, and we are now their slaves. Look at the post below on how Jews used the Fed Reserve Bank (Jewish bank for 100 years) as a tool to make the Whites pay for a “welfare” state that we have today. Obama and Michelle are part of the “Welfare State,” don’t you see it yet?

Jew Federal Reserve Bank a welfare system for non-Whites

In Uncategorized on December 2, 2012 at 9:25 pm

Jew & Fed Reserve: How Jews hoisted the Fed Reserve on Whites to get all their money for 100 years (anniversary soon) and then produce a “welfare” state. It was always Jews intention not to put blacks and browns to work, or even themselves, but to drain the White treasury dry and bankrupt. Fed Reserve which is not Federal as eve Federal Express is a private owned company, started on Dec. 23, 1913. It was done when most White men were told to go home “take it easy” and “celebrate Christmas.” While you Whites are praying and having fun celebrating Jesus’ birthday, they robbed us blind, not only in 1913, but until today.

As I wrote before the headlines for Christmas was that this (Jewish) bank was a “gift” to Whites. Can you see how Jews have driven us crazy. They “take, rob, extort, steal, connive,” our money, land, women, boys, and they make us “believe” they are “good” and that they are “giving” us something.

Will post two more pictures. I went to protest the LA Federal Reserve which takes White money from all over the country and gives it to brown illegals, their oversexed Mexicans and all their babies.

Remember their are “12” Federal Reserve Banks and according to Jews they are like the “12” Tribes of Israel and “God.” Stop “believing” the Jews are God. Once you see through them, they will have to fall apart for they have nothing backing them except White minds, money, men. So when these Jews get the money from Whites, for example, in New York, they transfer it to the welfare state of California. And how California and New York go, so goes the USA. The Whites in the middle of the USA are like the White Oreo in an Oreo Cookie, California and New York keep pressing the rest of the country until they break us down and change into whatever suits the Jew’s whim or the Jewess. Only now it is more dangerous for the Jews may very well have all the yellow Communist money of China that they are using and Whites and America are so low compared to their height, we are doubly in trouble and doing nothing about it.


Creative Writing: True or Not-True

In Uncategorized on September 9, 2012 at 5:48 pm

Lies or Truth? Fiction or non-fiction. Rules of non-fiction or truth such as news… should be… but it is?
I’m taking a CD course on Creative non-fiction writing to improve skills for my memoirs. Rule: Keep non-fiction contract: Everything must be true.

There’s a “unspoken code,” in non-fiction, or news writing, “Every word and deed MUST BE TRUE!” See my other posts for all the lies that were “caught” by Jews at Nuremberg Trials, World War II. Yet these lies were covered up. If these many laws were caught, like the Jew Commie Russians responsible for Katyn Massacre against Polish White Catholics but blamed the Nazis, Hitler and Germany for them…… how many lies have we in our minds, books, sub-conscious, hearts, and decisions and actions? Lies have become our reality. Jews are writing our history, they are writing our autobiographies, and the only ones published are those that meet the Jewish criteria, or Jews will mold and edit it to “fit” what they want us to think, hear, feel and say.

It’s where we have gone pretty crazy, for so many lies, cover-ups, created Hollywood events that pose as “News,” such as 9/11, World War II. And these are “major” statements, not “minor” statements. We don’t seem to realize what is on the Jew Hollywood screen, or Jew Hollywood news, and that is the biggest crime of history, especially White history who “believe” as in Christianity, and Jews abuse our “believing” by telling us lies and we fall for them. It becomes part of our sub-conscious and affects all our decisions, thought processes, actions, and above all “our feelings, even sexuality” which Jews bank on.
The teacher on the CD says that if the news are “lies” the reader has a right to be angry. But we know 9/11 didn’t happen the way we were told, and yet, few are angry. Those that are angry have been infiltrated, such as 9/11 Truth movement by having “Poor Jews from Holocaust” in center of their movie. In other words, every person or group, race or religion, could be responsible for 9/11 except.. the poor Jews… the richest people in the world. Swindlers!
People enjoy lies. I heard that in writing romance novels in order to get published (by Jews) one must keep to a strict guideline. It is followed over and over and over again, but with different characters, scenes. It’s the same with all entertainment. It is why when I came only with the Jenny Jones Show, a new burst of energy flooded the Jewish entertainment: American Idol, Karaoke or Sing a long shows, Dance with the Stars, “Reality” shows since  my emails kept insisting I was “real” but most was faked as Jenny Jones and Jerry Springer are.
Another example: I don’t “believe” Osama Ben Ladin was killed and then dropped to bottom of ocean. Same happened with Nazis: give them all vials of cyanide leaving no witnesses on court trial. It is the most diabolical of Jewish court methods, and they rule our legal field, and have for ages, even in Europe. But word got out that people don’t believe the death of Ben Ladin, when there’s no body for court trial. So now a Navy Seal comes up with a book. Ah! Sounds like some truth tidbits come out, but in fact, they made it “appear leaked” which is again a “lie,” but will corroborate Obama’s story of the massacre of him as Jews massacred the Czar and Czarina and family in Russia for the Jewish Russian Revolution against White Christian Russian Males, females, children. To destroy them and Christianity as Jews were involved same in French Revolution. Not only genociding the royalty, but the church, Jesus, Mary, and God which is “Deicide!”  Two different churches were involved: Catholic in France, Orthodox Christian, which is like Catholic, but they don’t honor Pope. (just one of 41,000 reasons to divide White Christians, when Jews are “1” and Muslims are “1”.  Hindus are “1”, and yellow Chinese Commies are “1”.
And in news: Associated Press where almost all our news comes from, which is trusted, supposedly reliable, quoted to the nth degree… AP, or Associated Press is Jewish. The word “Hebrew” means “Bandit” so what does that tell you Whites and or Christians or other races, because if the White Race is genocided, goes bankrupt… all the other races will be affected, at least blacks and browns, reds. Jews and yellow Chinese both much smarter and not addicted or damaged, are in the world’s driver’s seat.

Who’s White

In Uncategorized on August 17, 2012 at 7:31 pm
I was eager to post on Facebook for I’m getting barely 3 hits a day, and nothing worthwhile. The little time I have left on planet needs to be more productive.
There was a Polish man, Adam Urbanski, the “millionaire mentor” whose webinar I attended to make more $$ with my book by giving free chapters away on Twitter, etc. (I did
Facebook) but when I emailed him, his “brown Mexican secretary” thanked me for my email and hung up. Whites cannot get to top of anything. We are just like a bunch of ants going in all different directions which even dumb ants don’t do. Each and every movement, thought, feeler, sex hormone is in attune to Nature. I’ve watched the fire biting ants in my garden who almost drove me crazy like Jews. They unite and attack by crawling up any part of body they can latch on to. There is “No” withstanding the pain except to run away… good analogy for Whites running away from Jews and criminals of other races.
Here’s youtube on “fire ants.” It just shows how they are so strong and smart even a microwave oven can’t kill them. How did Whites lose our instinctive ability to detect danger, multiply healthy? Vid shows that plants thrive. I have a green pepper plant that just “loves” being right next to electric air conditioner out side. Also, I was able to get rid of biting fire ants with combo of Boric Acid, lots of sugar, water, cotton balls, a little plastic container with holes top. It took 2 seasons but I have eradicated them, otherwise what was my alternative? To move cause I can’t use the garden soil? I have gotten a lot of nuts, berries, fruit, veggies, greens, etc.
Such much of my work is not off the top of my aching head, but statistics, quotes, but moreover my own experience, which few whites can bring to the table without first being “told.” That makes my contribution “unique” but I stand on the shoulders of very intelligent, brave and courage, men and women that were ahead of me. It would be my hope tha the Polish white people would continue by bringing Jews crimes to the surface. Otherwise they like being “slaves” and “dumb Polaks” as Jews named and treated them like.
Here is a clip from Census on who is white? I sent this before and rarely repeat, but here goes. Note how the Jews, like “Bernstein” who run the US Census include what I mentioned before and even “more” since they cover up the Hindus in this. Jews “pass for white” like the movie, but aren’t; Muslims and North Africans the same. I’m surprised the Jewish Census takers didn’t include “Aryans” in White Race: Like Norwegians, Swedish, Danes, Hitler’s Ideal people? The Arabs, Lenanese, Moroccan are very “racist” people that stick together, not race-breaking as Jews did to Whites. This description below shows clearly that our White race population figure is much, much, much lower than Jewish Census is providing us. It is a lie that we cannot afford to live with.
White. A person having origins in any of the original peoples of Europe, the Middle East, or North Africa. It includes people who indicate their race as “White” or report entries such as Irish, German, Italian, Lebanese, Arab, Moroccan, or Caucasian.

Elvis: Miracle of the Rosary

In Uncategorized on July 29, 2011 at 10:54 am
This email is only for those that are religious, and although I do not pray the rosary, God hears all prayers. We just need to hear Him. I know there are those that don’t believe, so you may not want to read this, but it was an extraordinary miracle from my childhood.
It was March 28, 1957. Elvis was playing at Chicago International Ampitheatre. Sister Rose got tickets for $2.50 each. (that was a miracle in itself since we had no money for food, somehow the money came for the tickets.)
Elvis had flopped in Vegas when playing the Frontier Casino, but he went to see Liberace and I have on an old video in black n white where Liberace is motioning to Elvis that he was “Square,” in his clothes. LIberace talked Elvis into buying a Nudie designed suit: The Gold Lame. I saw it at Graceland and it is all gold, tie, shirt, socks, shoes, suit, and the jacket is trimmed in fine Austrian crystals, several rows down.
Well, I was only 9 years old and going through my I want to be a cloistered nun when I grow up that never talks but prays in a nunnery to God silently for the rest of her life. I had already taken a “vow of silence” when 7, and judging my life today, I should have kept that vow.
We were sitting up high in the seats, and when Elvis came out for the next hour, it was 12,500 girls screaming at the top of their lungs, non-stop. Since I was not a fan of his or anybody else (except God) I whipped out my aura borealis reflective rosary beads and prayed for Elvis. I thought he was evil then, or at least the Jew media had him made out to be. Now I think differently and perhaps have Elvis canonized as the Patron Saint of Rock N Roll. I’m sure that would attract people to the Catholic Church.
It was tragic what happened afterwards. We went home by bus and found my Mama beating my Daddy cruelly and he was bloody. My sister Rose was hysterical and weeping and threatening to run away if Mama didn’t stop. (I did the same with my first suicide attempt which was right about this time also, for I was 9 when that happened.)
Rose did run away. Many gals were running away to see Elvis. Even Elvis’ mother’ Gladys Love Presley got on TV begging the girls not to run away to Graceland for Elvis didn’t see them and the girls would get in trouble.
On the way to Memphis, Rose hitchhiked. It is said that she was raped by 17 men in a truck in a parking lot at a diner. When she was picked up the guy probably offered to buy her a hamburger, and as skinny as she was, she believed him. The men were White. I doubt if White men would rape if we had White tax dollars to solve our White sex problems, for if I talk about it, it is worse than talking about Jews and it shouldn’t be if we are to create children the Normal way instead of the Jews’ doctor’s way of using a turkey baster and artificial womb. It’s all about $$$ for them, and screw the White people and their offspring who see these doctors as gods.
Well, fastforward about 25 years. In the 16 books I read, I found out that Elvis read about 1,000 books, including Science and Health, by Mary Baker Eddy, and also the Mormon book. Elvis finally wanted to devote his entire life to God. He had enough of movies, Las Vegas, show business, and believe it or not……… Elvis was going to become a…… “cloistered” monk that goes away to monkery and never talks but prays silently to God.
The cloistered saint I mentioned above, was St. Therese the Little Flower of Jesus, and her Mother Superior asked her to write an autobiography for she was always doing little deeds of kindness the likes of which had never been seen before. You know, I bet that would help the White Race. To focus on being kind to one another and not spend all or time worshipping Jews or watching blacks, supporting browns, and buying yellow products.

Eddie Funeral, Wife and Family

In Uncategorized on July 28, 2011 at 6:31 pm
Here is what I wrote a Polish male friend of the family, also studied for priest. He went to the wake but I was delayed and didn’t get to see him. He is a retired French Teacher.
I was distraught worse of all when my brother’s eldest son went to step on my mother’s grave, intentionally, as the other things they did to me and mine.
Will God reward her and the kids with all these riches my brother left and leave me broken hearted until I die? What kind of God is that? No wonder people flock to the Jews and their religion for they are living the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth and it gets brighter each day for them.
Here’s the email. There’s a 3 day Elvis festival and want to attend some activities. Glad he was a metaphysician and healer like I became right after his death in late summer 1977, and I became a Christian Scientist.
Thank you for your words and kind insights. I did know that Eddie had a girlfriend, with very blonde hair, that he was madly in love with. But she didn’t love him. Eddie was heartbroken, and I’m not sure if this was the same one. Peggy was crazy about Eddie. Eddie told me that she dressed badly also. As I said, there were 13 kids, and farmers, and probably hand me downs.
I would have liked to be friends with Peggy, but was beneath her. I even thought of that when I called her, to “pretend” we were sisters or friends. I had absolutely no animosity…… but she hated me. I mean “hate” and only God will forgive that, I’m a mortal and can’t. As you will read below I have forgiven much of both Peggy and Eddie but it is not right that a “good” woman like me should suffer.
I wanted to mention something you wrote about about how they were dressed in flip flops while you had a tie on out of respect. John also wore a White shirt and nice tie and had Rose dressed nicely for she can’t take care of herself. (she was once the most beautiful of all of us girls, but the changing neighborhood of South Chicago did a number on her, but that for another email.) I dressed in a dress, and even Peg was in slacks or there were some in shorts. It might seem as if I were “overdressed,” yet I always try to look nice without being overdressed.
I was talking with a TSA agent at the airport scanners and commented that he was “Polish” his last name “Kulka.” He said he was 1/2 Danish and 1/2 Polish. It seemed Claude that he was “ashamed” of his Polish side and “proud” of being Danish or Scandinavian as if they are better than us. He then said to me, “I don’t know about those Polish men always dressing up. Don’t they know they are in “America?” What does it mean to be “in America” is that the same as being “In Sane?” Just cause one dresses up, the other men “hate” that person that does. He said that at family functions the Polish men come dressed up in suits and ties. I was aghast for I asked him if he had any single Polish relatives that “dressed” up for I’m totally sick to the point of vomiting of seeing men in raggedy jeans, dirty jeans, smelling jeans, crushed up tee shirts, hair uncombed and hid under a baseball hat. What has happened to our men? These Germans are rich and could have afforded the best suits of all with 4 buttons on the wrist, ultra-bright White shirts, even a vest if it wasn’t hot, polished shoes, smiling with confidence and strength. Yet this Polish “Kulka” man knocked down the Poles. It seems to be “fashionable” to knock down Poles, but never ever knock down any other nationality or race or they’d take one to prison.
Anyway, I’m glad you dressed nice, and wish I could have seen you. I surely would have taken pictures. But even perhaps I would have overlooked your sincere appreciation of dressing right, and might have overlooked it in my grief.
I was also upset at the graveyard. My mother’s grave was covered with dirt. Daddy’s wasn’t and Eddie was going in the next open grave. So my sister Mary Ann said “Where’s Mama’s grave?” And I said “they buried it with dirt!” I didn’t think it was done deliberately but thought when the excavated the coffin it fell on it. So I bent down with a stick and took off some of the dirt so that no one would step on it for that was Eddie’s mother who above all odds of anything I’ve ever seen in life, gave this world what she believed God wanted her to: 12 babies in abject poverty. But Peg must have nudged him for me to stop, which I did. I didn’t think anything of it, until Chris her grown son, deliberately went up to my mother’s grave, positioned himself with is feet as if ready to step on it. In fact, he had to split his shoes to the side to avoid stepping on it. It was the worse slap in the face I’ve ever seen for the Nowak family, whose Daddy worked for a man they will canonize as a saint soon, waiting the 3rd miracle, Fr. Nelson Monsignor Baker! Kris actually moved from his place which was several feet away to position himself there. Hadn’t I removed the dirt he would have stepped on it “unknowingly” but he end up coming right up to the flat tombstone and his toes actually touching it. It was unbelievable. But in essence, they treated me, at least, as if stepping on me, and I wonder if God will give her all those riches over Eddie’s tears. It doesn’t seem fair or just. To preach having babies and poverty is wonderful, but not to get stepped on for one’s extreme goodness. As I said, only Josephine would have been to see Eddie, and I really think they wanted it that way. When I showed up, I brought John, Rose, Mary Ann, cousin Debbie and her friend agreed to come, you lovingly and unselfishly came, and I showed up. With all of us there, we were bound to compare notes on what was going on in Eddie’s life and death, and hopefully through our prayers, resurrection.
I don’t know if I wrote this before, but I have been working on our ancestry from Poland. I spent several years rounding up death certificates, birth certificates, marriage certificates, Census Reports from 1910, 1920, and 1930. (Ancestry study is the #2 passtime in USA.) I assembled pictures and made phone calls to distant relatives. My brother, John, is also one to “bring the family together.” I think in my fantasies, that I would be like “Joseph” in the Bible. The one his 11 brothers threw in the pit for they hated him,he was sold to slavery, then end up co-ruling Egypt. He then was able to give his brothers all the food they needed for the famine for they accidentally had to go to him for “grains” that were controlled by the government. (We may see that here someday if the history of Poland repeats itself in America, which is what I’m seeing.)
Anyway, I’ve always bent over backwards for my family, but have never gotten that love in return. Even until the funeral, if I didn’t show up, probably Josephine would have been the only one there for “Eddie,” and the crowd there was very “hostile” towards Eddie. I’m going to try to get the passages that were read from the Bible, but it sounded something like the “dead” are punished (Eddie?) while those living will get the riches and the gold. I almost fainted when I heard that. And no one else was paying attention. These were passages that Peg’s relatives were reading, and I already told you I heard from her male relative telling a younger son “not to cry” for Eddie was not well-liked.
Well, given the fact, that I wanted to bring out family together, for we are all split apart like atoms. Each sibling lives with the immediate family, and has nothing to do with the rest. It isn’t just my family, it is getting to be epidemic. It is called “divide and conquer,” strategy. I’m sure the problem built in with male/female relationships is part of that. I read in my book, “How to Succeed with Men” that there is a World War III going on between the male and female here, and I believe it is “intentional.” When one can destroy the most primitive of entities like that, it is unlike anything in my garden species. Males and females are needed. Even in tree pollinating, fruit etc.
So as an act of “kindness” and after all, I wanted to become a nun like St. Therese the Little Flower, cloistered non-speaking nun, whose Mother Superior told her to write her autobiography for she was always doing ‘acts of kindness’…… I made 12 copies of an entire album for each of my family, and sons. Eddie and I were getting close, and Eddie told me he was moving to Vegas, which surely would have upset Peggy. I really played it cool, for I did not want to be the cause of Eddie’s breakup, and even though Peg hates me, I do not hate, and didn’t encourage Eddie to move here. There are cheap or even free trailers here if one wants to fix them up, and I did give Eddie the number.
But when I sent the box with the album of ancestry for him and the kinds, something strange happened. First of all, Eddie was pleased as punch to get the ancestry. He even said that he would start paying 1/2 of all my expenses and that he wanted to study the tombstones of Lackawanna New York where my Daddy and Fr. Baker are from.
I included a letter. In that I mentioned this: Nicky told me that he had to go to the boy’s bathroom for the 1st class. Nicky said the boys at the school were in the bathroom first thing in the morning vomiting from drunkenness, overdrugged on illegal drugs, and even robbing their mother’s many prescriptions. How do you ‘teach’ a boy like that, especially Veteran’s boys who are imitating their father from Viet Nam and the drug addictions they acquired there.” I wrote that in the letter.
Somehow, Peg turned it around and said it was “their” kids. Eddie called me at work and cursed me out so bad, I thought I would get fired for I couldn’t hold the receiver next to my ear. He never allowed me to correct their thought, for I only speak truth. I then realized Peg had pumped him up. She has never spoken a word to me even though I longed to be her friend. She had her many sisters, and the Germans stick together like glue.
Peg then called me right after Eddie screamed at me, and she then screamed at me on the phone even double. Eddie had no touch with our family or friends, so his reality was Peg and the kids and he said for many years they were verbally abusing him.
It took a lot to forgive Eddie, but when I heard he had the CD I wanted to again … do an act of kindness and see if he needed my help. He was happy I called for he needed computer work done since he didn’t work them. So I found many songs that he wanted to sing. Both the original and karaoke music which is background music without the voice. I suggested that we have a duet and sing at Warsaw Inn by you (love their Polish food, especially Czarnina, Duck’s Blood Soup, as Mama made, good for “iron” for breastfeeding mothers, and women carrying babies. It would take 75 servings of spinach to get the iron needed for this kind of woman, but only a few portions of these high iron meals. Men and women are different.
So I burned all the songs and had to buy them. Even though I am living in poverty, I never asked nor wanted the money.
I thought it would be great. I would sing in costume, go change for the next songs, and Eddie would with his great talent, keep the crowd entertained.
I told Eddie 2 things about this: 1) that I was doing it as a ‘favor for him.’ He was desperate for places to play, even for free, where he might sell his CD… I would not be returning to Chicago, so I thought his kind of music was perfect for Warsaw. 2) I told Eddie, “Eddie, My Love” which is a song. Here I will send it to you, to show you how a sister can love, even after abuse. Eddie used to really beat me up as a little girl to the point of unconsciousness. He had a bad temper …. but ‘only for me’ the only really good woman in his life. The family even mentioned in their eulogy that Peg loved Eddie, not for being talented, an excellent provider, a fun personality, but she loved him because they both worked and Eddie did all the cooking, cleaning, laundry, baking, gardening, and Peg didn’t have to do anything. Quite a gem he was I’d say. Anyway, I told Eddie, “Ed, the most important thing about us performing together is not the Warsaw Inn, or even the CD, the crowd, etc. The most important thing is if we can do this and get along. That is all I wanted to get from this performance. The ability to get along with my brother. But I knew we were dealing with entrenched negative feelings that I believe Claude were intentionally put on us. Divide in Conquer. Although all of us got along very well at the wake. It wasn’t long before Eddie called me again and cursed me out saying that if I come out I better not ask him for lifts or anything else for he wouldn’t help me.
It’s bizarre, but this isn’t even just in me and my family. In Christianity, we are always looking to help the forlorn and helpless. Hence my entire family helps my sister Rose who I have to admit is very disturbed. In a large family there is always a “slave” who doesn’t finish 8th grade but is always supposed to be a helper to the Mother. That was Rose, and I thank her for that, for I was able to put all my attention to St. Mary Magdalene School and get A’s, even though we were too poor for a paper and pencil. It will be in my memoirs coming up. But at the same time, the ones that are doing really well or trying hard, for I had problems too, the family not only “ignores” that person, but literally beats them up. Father Witmanski, Pastor from St. Mary Magdalene got up in his sermon to say that I would be the next saint in the Catholic Church for I was always praying, church etc. It really was to heal the arguments of my folks and the fighting between the men and women. But while I’m being so “good,” Mama beat me until 22, Eddie beat me unconscious in my stomach, even Buni slapped me, but please don’t bring it up as my main concern for him is to survive there on his own. Mama once cursed out the church, nuns and priests for being “hypocrites” and “spiritually dead.” It must have hurt Mama deeply to have all those children sacredly for “God” and then see the Catholic Church abandon us while helping all the blacks and browns. We got no freebies or even a basket of food when the refrigerator was empty for days. Nor could we complain for we had to be “strong.” That being the case, I failed 1st grade for I had no shoes in the cold, freezing Chicago winters. When I did go to school, wearing shoes that were unbearably tight and hurting even bleeding my feet, the nun would have exercises of math at the board. I had missed so much school I didn’t know what was going on. So she would ask us to go to the blackboard and figure out problems, like 2 + 3 = 6…. (ha ha ha, I mean =5 just trying to see if you are still with me, which if you aren’t I don’t blame you at all.) When I went to the blackboard she was smart enough to know I was off too much and when I wrote the wrong answer she beat me in front of the whole class. I think when one is a “good’ woman the other women resent that. You know the book “Men Love Bitches: Stop Being a Doormat and Get the Man of Your Dreams.” I’m the “opposite” of a bitch and have suffered and still suffer today. Where my siblings should be doing everything to support me in jobs, relationships, even entertaining, they distance themselves from me and help Rose. Rose has gotten help from hospitals her entire life, and from the family who always go to see her, buy her presents, take her to lunch. If you see John, you will see how wonderful he treats her. I’ve never been treated well like that in my life.
I’m just glad that all of us are functioning and doing well. My son Paul was taught at Christian Science boarding schools and they literally saved his life. At that same school, Rickover in Sauk Village, there were German Shepherd dogs patrolling the halls for all the drugs that were flowing thru, and that would have hurt my son. It hurt my older son who had no choice to stay there. My first son had 98.7% highest PSI results for his tests on mentality, and especially for Math. But he end up dropping out of school. He works now though as a milkman, and I see that our country was so busy helping minority and their Civil Rights that they let our boys rot. It is said here in Vegas when I talked to a former nun married to a former priest, that her White son is the ‘only’ boy in a certain fine school in advanced math and science. The other 29 were girls, Jews, Chinese, Hindus, Blacks and Browns who get special attention and mentors. Her son could not keep up his good grades for the other kids’ mothers could stay home and help with homework, activities, sports and she had to work long hours just to keep him there. She even said he was fantastic at tennis, had to pay $90.00 for lessons, while the others got grants, breaks, mentors for being minorities. Oh was she hot and even though we worked at a Jewish firm, she voiced her dismay about how badly the future looked for the white boys, especially her own. Paul owns a Condo right by the White House and does computer programming for the Commodities. As I wrote before, he was dating a gal from that school whose father worked directly for George Bush, Candoleeza Rice, and was 5th highest in command in the USA. (she drank and smoked and I guess thought that was bad for babies if they wanted them and rightfully so, although I don’t influence my son. In today’s world, the TV, radio, schools mold the minds of our youth, not the parents, who are usually overworked and only to happy to drop them off at a government run school.
Anyway, I better get cutting I need to go to a 3 day Elvis festival and wanted to sing and check out some of Elvis’ Memphis Mafia, friends, family. I’ve already read 16 biographies, although biographies and non-fiction are the only books I read anyway. I always have one standing up while I eat my meals.
Just one more thing. DID YOU GET A COPY OF EDDIE’S CD? IF NOT I WILL SEND IT TO YOU? He made the most beautiful song called “Goodnite Sweet Jesus, Goodnite, It’s the end of a long hard day.” I wanted to have that played before the coffin was closed, while we all passed and even kissed Eddie and Josephine and I did. Doesn’t that sound perfect? It would be like Eddie going into heaven to Jesus, God. He would be “going to sleep” for the last time. My older sister called up and she said the same thing and we didn’t even compare notes until then. As I said, Eddie’s music could hardly be heard. Peg and the kids were not fond of it. I asked them if they had a CD player so we could play that. Being that I’m karaoking big time for 12 years one gets an “instinct.” But when the time came for the closing of the coffin, they indeed put a song on, for they probably hadn’t thought of it up until then. But to show their superiority over us, for the Reckamps are all successful and rich, she had a song played dedicated to herself, not to God, not to Jesus, or to Eddie, who this was really about. This was his last and final show. Instead she played a song of his I have never heard as if Eddie were singing to her, “You’re wonderful, you’re so kind, you are always doing sweet things for me.” I was crying for I thought he was singing it to me and then I stopped crying for I realized she picked that song for herself. What “sweet” things did she do for Eddie when he did the cooking, Eddie did the cleaning, Eddie did the laundry, Eddie took care of the house, Eddie had to go himself on a train when he was dying downtown to see the Jewish psychiatrist, (who my sister said was giving him too many anti-depressants and overmedicating him for Eddie was on 3 different pills from him, in addition to the pills.) When Eddie was dying and couldn’t get up, she yelled at him and she told me so. He couldn’t get up to wash himself. Eddie complained for when he was sick and lying there needing his medication to stay alive he’d ask his daughter to run to the drug store and she refuses and I guess mouths off to him.
Eddie wasn’t that good to me. But I also see that like many White men who are being intentionally brought down, he took it out on the one that cared about him.
Well. I never dreamed Christianity would be about the rich Christians against the poor Whites. But that is how it seemed. It was good that I went though, for hadn’t I gone, I wouldn’t have all the stories from the rest of my family for I rarely talk to them and if Josephine went, she wouldn’t have gathered all these things.
You know, I think part of it stems from a false idea of Christianity and Jesus. We have these pictures of him having been beaten and bloody and “doesn’t say a word” and even suffers the abandonment of all his disciples who left him when it got “hot” for Jesus. We get the false notion that one should be “strong and alone and endure” and suffer. I believe God wants us happy. I once read in the J.B. Phillips New Testament Bible that if we were to sum up in 2 words the entire life it would be Christ Jesus saying to us with a smile, “Enjoy Life!” I never got that from my study or those that taught me before. It was then that I embraced karaoke with a full heart of love for God, myself, and my fellow human beings. And I have literally helped millions around the world to “Enjoy Life’ from Jenny Jones (she’s Polish) which started American Idol, to parades where millions would assemble of all races, and even going out of my way to put other races ahead of my own, which I now see is wrong for my mental health.
Although I went up to Peggy, I didn’t hug her goodbye. So many things went on that were anti-Polish Nowak and pro-German Reckamp her last name, it was humiliating. Also, Mary Ann wrote a beautiful long poem and got to read it. But surely when she asked Peggy, it was right before the closing of the casket and Peggy couldn’t say no in front of the crowd. If you would like a copy I will ask my sister to mail it to you. Her poetry is sweet and she used to go on Chicago Radio as “Mary the Mystery” on the Midnight talk show and read her original poetry. She has boxes of it. There was a woman in Vegas who did the same on KDNR when I used to go on talk radio for politics. Mary Ann got to read it, but again, we were not invited nor welcomed as we weren’t invited to the $25,000.00 wedding they had recently. The only invited was Gloria from Florida, & she wouldn’t go. John got up before the coffin went underground and said he’d like to share a good thought about Eddie in that he loved, loved the space program, and the space program ended the same week he died. He did “not” ask Peggy he just spoke it as one of her relative men got up and asked to say a prayer at the meal at the Italian Restaurant, Bellagios.
I wanted to sing the #1 Funeral Song, “My Heart Will Go On.” I not only “sing” I “study” music making it a very intelligent exercise which no one really understands at my level, but I have to do things and think things of the “Highest” and to me the “Highest is Love and Justice.” I left our table and went to ask if I could sing as they have at restaurants. People are coming back to Vegas to take their vacations just to see my performances. Many have said I’m the best talent here and they never thought they would find this high level of entertainment in Vegas. Peggy made the dirtiest face and said “No!” again loud in front of the members of her table.
It’s beserk! When I worked for rich Jews downtown Chicago in the Neiman Marcus building, and although they were Satanic, and that isn’t “my” words but the woman and other co-workers there who hired and fired so many employees one could fill a forest preserve and there were only about 9 people! But we had our Christmas Party at the fancy Drake Hotel. They hired a piano player but no singer. They knew I sung, but at that time in 1995, very little. The rich Jewish owner came up to me personally and begged me to sing for the crowd. Jews know that for an entertainer to make it the entertainer needs opportunities like this to get practice of singing in public. And I did and they wanted more.
It’s just like the Jenny Jones Tape of me as the Queen of Karaoke which turned into American Idol, the White Christians all had access and seen that tape. They knocked me down, and I was crying. I think I mentioned I was at Cheesecake Factory sitting next to a female song writer who struck up a conversation. When I meant that it was difficult to be this “Queen of Karaoke,” she end up writing a song bout it which is now being requested at her concerts all over the world, more than any other song she wrote! I don’t get profits from any of this, I make nothing and do it out of love, which people call “crazy.” Anyone could have watched that Jenny Jones Show and “looked for the good,” as the Jewish man did that I gave the tape to. While White Christians were knocking me down, Jews transformed the tape into American Idol and the rest is history, the most watched show in history.
Anyway, here is the song “Eddie My Love,” as I hope he rests in God’s arms. Either that or inspires me to pick up his political activism for he was very angry about what was happening to the USA. It is why he made the song “We the People,” copyrighted.
You’ll see some fine pix and Vintage Video here. Although I don’t see Eddie like a lover. Matter of fact, of the 27 books I read on sex, the one entitled “The Scent of Eros: the Mystery of Odor in Human Sexuality,” by James Vaughn Kohl and Robert T. Francoeur, they write plainly that in a family, there is an “invisible odor” that a human emits. In a family of parents and children, this “scent” or “odor” makes the members “not want to have sex with one another.” It is Nature’s way of preventing parents of having sex with their children or siblings with each other even though they might sleep in the same bed. Those that commit incest as some nationalities and religions have done, like Jews in Poland, really are breaking the highest of Nature’s laws.
I love these halter dresses from the past, and have designed some of my costumes as their gowns! I like to finish on a positive note. Have a wonderful day, Claudie!